A Key Should Find From Deep Inside My Heart

I just finished read Peter Pan's blog, and I realized that I should find my own key to open my heart.
But, where is it???
I think I know where it is, but do I really want to open?!
I really scare to face everything right now!!!
I have no idea why I keep messing up my life?
Some times I kept thinking about what I should do without actual action! Think about non-sense, saying about non-sense to myself... What the fuxk!!!
You know what!!! I don't know how to face to Joan.
She's keep helping me... and I lock myself without her hand!!!
Stubborn Charmaine... Haiz~~~

颓废的雪敏

我，雪敏。已经颓废了一段时间！
我还要颓废到几时？！我真的很想颓废吗？！我不想的，可是我就是没有办法振作。我很讨厌现在的我！
我很害怕！我很无助！我真的不知道要相谁说，如何说？
我知道没有人可以帮我，唯有我自己！
雪敏，我要你振作。站起来。要加油。为了你自己，为了她们俩。要加油！加油！

23rd September 2010

23rd September, a date of my birthday.
Yeah... My birthday today ^^
But macam nothing special!
What do I want from my birthday? I don't know actually!
A new Iphone? Haha... I hope to get Iphone (day dreaming)...
I don't want anything, I just wanna get back my "confidence"!
I wish myself all the dreams come true ^^
Happy Birthday, Charmaine ^^